My Migraines

 

I have migraines, but like a lot of people I have been on medicine to control them for a long time. Unfortunately, that medication is causing me to have more depression and suicidal thoughts, so my doctor is taking me off it slowly. During this time of weening off of the medication Topamax, I have experienced outbursts of anger for no reason other than not wanting to peel small potatoes and blaming that on my husband. That is not a rational thing to have an outburst over. He, being the kind hearted person he is, did not react negatively to this outburst. He let it go and mentioned it later after I had calmed down the it might be associated with the withdrawal of the medication. I took that into consideration and agreed.

The following day it was time to reduce the amount of medication again. But out of no where came an overwhelming urge to cry and be sad. I had not been thinking of anything sad, had not watched any thing on TV that would make me sad, I just had tears running out of my face and I was sad. It made no sense to me either. So I sent a text to my husband and he called me right away. We talked a little bit and he suggested I not reduce the medication to the next step for at least another night. That is might take me a little longer to get off of it than the doctor expected. So I waited, but I wasn’t due to take another pill until bedtime. I called my sister in law and she cheered me right up. I can always rely on her to make me laugh. I have so few people in my life that I can call and talk candidly with, most want to try to solve my problems, instead of just listen to me with a sympathetic ear. And then make me laugh with some off the wall joke. But my sister in law has the knack to do just that. I am truly blessed to be a part of this family. They have seen me through some awful times and will probably see me through some more, but I can rely on them to be there and make me laugh, even when I have tears falling out of my face.

However, the headaches have began again. Just mild ones for now because I’m not completely off the medication, but I feel that I will start having them again once I am completely weened off of the Topamax. We’ve had the bedroom windows blacked out for years to accommodate my migraines. But it seems that I can tolerate pain from my neck down, once I have pain in my head, I start to go a little crazy, or a lot crazy. I can’t stand pain in my head. I’ve no tolerance for it. Not even a toothache. It is above my neck, it makes me crazy, or crazier, whichever way you choose to read this.

If you have had a migraine, you know where I am coming from, the intense pain in your head makes  you want to cut it off, bang it against a wall, do anything to get rid of that pain. I can not really explain how severe it is, only that I feel I have no more control over my body when I have a migraine. Everything has to be dark, silent and still, with an ice pack on my head. I have a few home remedies that have helped. Essential oils have helped ease the pain long enough for me to fall asleep and when I wake, the pain has remained eased enough to function a little bit. So I give some credit to that natural remedy. I began using essential oils a long time ago and have found they are great for many things, but I turn to the headache oil recipe the most. I found it in The Complete Book of Essential Oils and Aromatherapy. I have the old version of the book, the link I’m sharing is to the new version of the book that I will acquire after Christmas.

If you have any home remedies, I would like to hear from you. Pain pills do not always help, so please share with us what you do when you have a migraine.